So, this is heart ache?

They say, there is someone for all of us - a soul mate. I do believe in it and that was just last year.
Now, I am confused if it was true.



I read something, it says that we are travelers in a particular dimension and there is a person that was meant to be in our lives. Sounds, creepy to me.

I am fun of reading about love, psychology and about relationship. I was just curious if it is true.

Would there still be someone for me out there? Who has been with me on the past life?



I thought I meet him. I thought he was the one. Until he give up. He thinks that we are not for each other. He did not continue in wooing me. Sort of a roller coaster ride.

Halloween day, last year was the best day of my life. I meet him. He introduce himself and we shook hands and he held and squeeze my hand a bit. Off course, I feel creepy.

About a week, a teased me and called me 'idol'. He was very annoying.

Second week, I am started to asked him not to call me idol and keep waving hi to me.

Third week, thursday, he asked to walk with me as we go off from the our work. Then, we talk about personal things. It was fun.

My last week, monday on their office was heart breaking. It was the day I asked if he is wooing me. He did not say yes, He asked if he had a chance on me, I just smiled and laughed. I know that we will not see each other again, and it was a heart breaking feeling. I was just thinking on that moment if I can have his picture and he offered his picture. I was kind of, did you read my mind? Anyway, I give my picture to him.

Eventually, we part each others ways. The only communication was just text and call. But, after 3 months, I think, he got bored. A month later, he chatted and I asked him about our status, he said that he was already married and he realized that we are not for each other and so many excuses.

I was doomed.

After a month, we have seen each other. He was the same annoying person I ever known. He smiled and waved hi to me. Just like a child that I had give some candy. I ignored me, I was angry at that time. But, we talked after the event of that day. I guess, he was just testing me if I like someone other than him. It was at that moment I realized that I've been talking to married man in the office. He might thought that I am interest to others. I am angry at that time, but he is so calm, it's as if the things we talked about when we chat was nothing. He said that I was pretty, then, I asked if the condiments vendor was true, he said yes, and I asked him if they were back with each other, he just stared at me and he did not answer it directly. He said about other reason. I walked away. but he tried to stopped me. I just walk and said that he should be back at his condiments vendor girl. I also give back his picture. I said that I want to return his photo, I thought we are already couple, then, he said nothing.

After a month, I saw him. I saw again that annoying big smile. I ignored him but we talked as I pass by him. He asked if he can borrow my jacket, I just said that buy your own jacket. It was the last time I saw him.

He is very annoying,

Every time I decided to forget him, his name was mentioned on a tv ad, a song he sang was played on the radio and someone would say or yell, idol.

So now, I left devastated. I don't know if  we will be together again.

'And the story if us was like a tragedy now.'

The END.

Here's a song that I can relate to. Is this heart ache?

If it is, how can I not feel this pain and emptiness?